Gratitude and Moodiness - "I am a MEDIUM person! I should get to go to a medium place!" - The Good Place

So I know it's Thanksgiving weekend, but it's been occurring to me how difficult it can be to practice gratitude. Primarily because I've spent a fair amount of the past few days being kinda jealous.

I've been surrounded by people who care a whole lot for each other while some of my closest friends went away or stayed on the east coast for the holiday. I know a few people who have traveled to London, while I've started to get the bug to go back there. I miss New York. My current day job isn't paying me the kind of money I'd need to get all the things I'd like to get and do all the things I'd like to do. You know, basic stuff.

I think the point isn't to try to fight it, though. This feeling, however unfortunate, is part of the human experience. It sucks that it's happening now, at the beginning of the holiday season, but it just is what it is. And by accepting it, I can also appreciate the things I do have. I had a wonderful Friendsgiving last night, I have my health and my beautiful house, I have some money in my savings account, even if it's not as much as I'd like, and overall, I'm generally more happy than not. Even if I have a computer keyboard with a sticky "c" button, or I'm missing New York and the people in it.

Maybe it's not a coincidence (god, that was a terrible word to write with my "c" key) that all of this is happening as I'm bingeing The Good Place. It's the appreciation for the balance between the good and the bad. Everything is a gray area, and nobody is perfect.

Or maybe it's just that I'm moody in my first holiday season away from home. Or it's because I had nightmares that kept waking me up all night last night. I don't know! The human experience. Isn't it exciting.

Regardless, I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving with loved ones and good food, and I hope you have something special ahead of you as we move into the winter holidays. No matter how I feel today, I'm still psyched for them.


Happy Thanksgiving! - "Time flies, even if turkeys don't." - President Barack Obama

Whenever Valentine's Day comes around, you always hear that one friend who says "I don't believe in Valentine's Day, we don't need a commercialized holiday to tell people that we love them, we should be doing that year-round."

But when it's Thanksgiving, nobody ever says "I don't believe in Thanksgiving, we don't need a commercialized holiday to consider what we're thankful for, we should be doing that year-round."

I don't really have a point that I'm trying to make with that. I just think it's funny. As if we can't do something year-round and also celebrate it on a holiday.

This Thanksgiving, I'm thankful that I come from a sociopolitical background that allows me to pursue what I know I'm meant to do. It's unjust that this isn't an opportunity afforded to everyone, and it's important to do your part in fighting to change that, but so long as the world is still the way it is, I am so grateful that I don't have to pick up any crap job just to pay the bills instead of working towards the only career that makes me happy.

I'm thankful for friends who support and inspire me as I follow my dream. A few of them and I will be shooting a film I wrote this Tuesday, and, even though I've seen my work produced before, it always amazes me that it's really going to happen!

I'm thankful that people care about the things I have to say. Every time one of you reaches out to me to say that you liked one of my blog posts, it absolutely makes my day! (Especially to the person who mentioned it to me today, reminding me to write this post in the first place.)

I'm thankful that there are continuing movements to fight sexism, racism, transphobia, and all kinds of bigotry. Maureen Dowd had a major article about sexism in Hollywood in the New York Times! The Gray Lady! Sure, women have all been talking about it in the industry, but this isn't a niche industry publication. It's a pretty big deal. And, from Brandeis University, my alma mater, if you don't know about the #ConcernedStudents2015, you really should. #FordHall2015 They are doing the most amazing work. In forty or fifty years, they can brag to their children and grandchildren that they were there on the right side of history.

I'm thankful for my safety. Especially when I live in a major terrorist target of a city. The men and women who put their lives on the line to protect mine are all exemplary.

I'm thankful that my family is supportive of who I am and what I do. I don't even need to add anything on to that. I love them. (Awwww...)

I'm thankful to have challenges in front of me. I love having something to work for, and an obstacle I have to solve. Yes, I did feel the need to have at least one of these be insanely pretentious. That doesn't mean it isn't true.

I'm thankful to know that I know absolutely nothing. I'm also thankful to know that everybody else also knows absolutely nothing.

I'm sure I'll be back next week with some kind of more philosophical discussion of something in the life of being an actor/filmmaker or whatever. But for now, it's just nice to take stock of where I am in my life, and luxuriate in the fact that it's good.

And finally, because it is, as newscasters on morning shows like to say, "Turkey Day," please enjoy this #tbt video of a turkey somehow flying into a window.